I have decided that the year 2010 is going to be the year of big change in my life. Not in the New Year resolution way, but in the way of changing my life to a place where God wants it.
To get out of my dead end job, to get closer to realising the calling God has for me on my life, and to be a better husband, father and son.
I am starting a journey with my Father in heaven of revamping my life. To make the difficult and uncomfortable choices. To die to myself once again.
The one major thing on this list of things that needs to happen is that I need to forgive. To put a certain issue behind me and to heal the one relationship that can get between me and my wife, other than our own.
This has been a long week, with God convicting me on a daily basis while in prayer to really put this issue behind me. To go out of my way to fix this relationship and to stop telling myself that I was wronged, and it is not my fault.
We as Christ followers, need to stop with this easy, worldly practice of feeling wronged, and even if you were wronged, you need to make the first move to put it behind you.
I have now had this issue in my heart for close to 6 years, and I can honestly say, for the first time in these 6 years, I can say that it is behind me, through the power of the Lord.
Maybe you have something like this in your life that is keeping you from reaching that place that God wants you to be in. That little something in your heart that becomes a sore, and when it gets infected, can throw your whole life off course.
Maybe you need to go and spend some personal time with God in this issue, and get it sorted between the two of you so that you can reach that place of forgiveness.